No You by 12
It was 10 pm.
Gue udah ngantuk banget. Selalu begitu kalo di kantor lagi banyak kerjaan. Maklum, biasanya kerjaan gue di kantor kan sok-ngecek-ini-itu-padahal-ngefacebook-dan-ngopi-ngopi aja.
Pipis.
Minum supplement.
Lalu berdiri sebentar di depan cermin.
Gue ambil sleeping mask gue yang dulu beli di Korea.
Gue olesin di wajah.
Perlahan dari dahi, pijat dikit seputar mata, pipi, dagu, leher.
Tipis merata.
Perfect!
Sambil berdoa, semoga waktu bangun besok pagi, gue akan keliatan 5 tahun leibh muda.
I feel 5 years younger, actually, and happy.
Tapi kadang, kerutan di seputar mata emang gak bisa boong. Kalo gue lagi, “mirror mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of all?”. Jawabannya, “Eh…………… itu, uban udah banyak!!!!!!!”. Jadi udah sejak beberapa tahun lalu, pertanyaannya udah gue ganti, “mirror mirror on the wall, who is getting older but still sexy???”.
Hihi… me! Me! Me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t mind getting older. Masalahnya gue cuma pengen tetap cantik dan sexy aja! Dan definitely, gak ada yang bernyanyi “Kau tampak tua dan lelah!!!!!!”. Hihi… pasti gue tampar! Makanya kalo ada temen kantor yang suka gak-ada-kerjaan-ngomentarin gue, “Ngapain sih diet-diet, makan apa aja!!!! Hidup cuma sekali ini???”. Gue selalu tersenyum, dalam hati… “True! Hidup cuma sekali, gue pengen yang sekali ini gue sexy!”
Tapi emang gravitasi terlalu kuat buat menahan putaran waktu. Pelembab gue udah ganti dari non-oil, whitening, jadi “anti-ageing”.
Minggu lalu ada blog reader nginterview gue buat skripsinya. One of the question was, “Fa, apa sih bedanya secara umum antara gay sama str8 people, selain orientasi sexualnya?”.
Waktu itu gue jawab, “Gay people tends to be stronger. Living in high pressure, dari kecil, dan di mana saja, gay people must work harder to show the world that we are smart-success-independent-strong people. Otherwise, a little mistake akan diikutin dengan cacian ‘dasar homo’. No!!!!!! We don’t give a room for other people to judge us on our sexuality”.
That is correct. Tapi seharusnya masih ada yang harus gue tambahin ………… “gay people demen dandan!”.
Hihi… admit that! Meski mungkin nggak sampai dandan dalam artian wearing cosmetics, but we are all using beauty product, kan? Gak usah malu-malu – it’s ok! We should be proud that we are the main target of all the men’s facial care. Meski iklannya bintang-bintang macho dengan aktivitas-aktivitas macho [we don’t care about him, kan???], but yes, we use it cause we want it.
They just promo about facial wash.
We bought complete dengan pelembab dan eye cream-nya, kan???
That make us different with str8 man. Thanks to that!!!
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So, here I was.
Stood tall in front of the mirror.
Made a wish……
“I wish for a healthy heart.
I wish for a strong mind.
I wish for love.”
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It was 10 pm.
I was gonna sleep tight.
No bday cake by 12.
No bday kiss by 12.
No you…
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But it was ok.
I knew you would wake up, and called me.
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June 9th, 2012 at 8:16 am
Faaaa…. Happy B’day! Sowwy telaaattt *hugs*
June 11th, 2012 at 4:09 pm
bee, itu sleeping mask yg lu pake apaan si merk nya.. kyaknya ngefek banget gtu ke lu. hahaha #salahfokus #tapibenerannanya
July 1st, 2012 at 8:37 pm
Mas Fa, semangat!! Believe in the proverb : Distance will make the heart grow fonder. Wish U a fabulous year!! *big hugs*
July 22nd, 2012 at 10:06 pm
Fa! Kita juga kangen Fa!
-that was compliment btw-
Tetep nulis dong. In your story we find strength and in your words we find laughters. It’s so strange somehow that all your story are so easy to relate with. It feels like I’m actually reading my own diary, cuman versi lebih pinky dan bitchy.
Tetep lanjutin nulis ya Fa!
We love you! *hugs*
August 12th, 2012 at 12:31 pm
ni buku bgs deh kak, udh baca blm,,,
http://ceritasolitude.wordpress.com/2011/10/15/cowok-rasa-apel-cerita-gay-remaja-yang-aman-dibaca-hehehe/